Fall in love again!

after a heart break, when you pass the same old coffee place or eat somethng they enjoyed or b at a place that gv you a memory of lifetime to cherish...it hurts! :) it hurts deep, feels like a piece of you revolting, its like devastating...to say the least.

when a person comes in your life, things change. what you eat, what you like, your entire being... its like you discover yourself in a new light. the change is fun, its joy and thats a feeling you wish could last not for a moment or two, but for your entire being! its the most beautiful thing that i have ever felt...

you feel like holding on to that feeling for ever... but then the break up happen; pain, anger, and all anti happiness ugly things happen.its a wound that doesn't seem to heal over eternity. healing is a long long process, it takes its own time... no doctor or specialist can help you. no self help books, no psychological councilor... no one! but gradually when you are totally tired of trying to find answers as to why it happened... it suddenly dawns on you...'the breakup happens to give you a chance to b you once again'... to fall in love again!

its a process to revert back the change. i have discovered how i came to depend on him, how his view on everything mattered, how it was utterly necessary for me to have him around!! i now understand tat ws bad... really reallly bad. although there were things i learned from him, in a sense the change made me grow...it was good, but now it was time to move on... i still have a long life ahead of me, to discover new things, to understand more about every aspect of this life...

im happy i experienced love, it meant the world to me, it still does... i savor every tiny instance of the relationship. to b fair i still wish to get back together...bt i guess there is smthng else planned for me.. ill have to wait!

:)

heights of impotence: INDIA!!

im 20 yrs old.indian. and for once im not proud to be an indian... the recent upheaval in mumbai is not only disturbing bt shameful too . this 2 day event has shaken the otherwise calm and tolerant mumbai.. N ppl hv not returnd back to being normal.. looks like the spirit of undeterred mumbai has finally been squashed... where r we going... how cn ny organisation or country even DARE to enter the most high profile...industrailly active city of this country and that too in such locations as the TAJ, CST or VT!

it seems difficult n almost impossible now to expect saftey from indian govt.their political impotence shall b the new running joke on the world canvas from now on!! how meak and timid hv we presented ourselves to the world in the name of 'ahimsha' that any tom dick or harry cn jst walk all over us! where is our dignity...or hv v sold it in lue of international acceptance??
wat next should we wait for Mr. prime minister??? i can not express in words hw patrioitic N affectionate i feel for my country... bt today i feel cheated...disgusted n a complete sense of dettachment...

i ws enthusiatically preparing 4 my first vote ( M.P. vidhan sabha election) bt this event hs left me thinking if my vote is worth nythng... does it make even one tiny lil difference to the trechreous... dirty ppl running my country.

this is the common feeling of every indian this morning.. we wake up to see carnage in mumbai..n wonder about our saftey...we feel betrayed and at the end vow to keep away frm this crap system...

its high time v take a look at our policies of both national n international saftey... its time to b more stringent with security breaches n punish the offenders.. its time to act quick!! its time to ACT! WAKE UP NOW 4 heavens sake ...

i wish v all unite in this time of misery n pain..n pray to the almighty to keep us safe n toghether...

i pray for strength... i pray for courage... i pray 4 love amongst us all.. i pray 4 a siege which the world shall see n remember for ever so that next time one has to think million of times before commiting to ny act of vandalism against INDIA!

G0 GrEEn

hey!!


lets go green...dunno where the thought came from but ye it is a guuuud idea! plant trees, adore nature, its beauties, recycle and make green the color of this season....its spring time..the monsoons jst hitting the coast...early morning breeze bringing the smell of mother nature....ymmmm...... experience the monsoon magic :)



fall in love with nature....its all around u...have u ever experienced the joy of opening ur arms wide under the blue sky to gulp the biggest possible bout of fresh air! its magical...its theraputic to the highest degree.



plant trees around u..make a garden...not jst becoz u have to save this planet ( or say it for a beauty pagent) bt because its life...its joy... the tiny saplings growing to an adorable mighty tree, its beautiful...try it, believe me its not difficult at all..the monsoon will nuture it for u...all u have to do is to plant it, take care that its kept alive, not crushed or eaten by animals...dats it...comme'on u cn do it!



u grow every year...wat better if u hv a twin who grows with u :) a tree twin... i planted a few trees on my birthday and today they r like 5 yrs old...lush green and its such a beautiful sight to see them sway with the breeze.... so jst check the next birthday in ur planner and gift them a tiny babey plant.



we all have known these things deep inside us...but y cnt v jst let go and do these things in our daily lives...y cnt v take time to b emotional...and just LIVE !!!!




y do u get up early in morning... go to work .... and get busted each day??? to b happy...so dat u b able to do wat u want to do.... but when dear???? when r u gonna do dat... dat thing which u always wanted to do...fly high...or sit by the lake...spend evening with ur loved ones or watever ....... do it today....

LEt LifE H@ppEn T0 U.....

funny R the ways of world!

Boys and girls are grown differently... boys are not supposed to be afraid..they r taught chivalary,they have to gaurd others...take all responsibilities; while gilrs are made to grow with their fears and insecurities..which are eventually incorporated as values in their lives... bold self sufficient girls are considered uncultured... y all taboos and behavioral limits only for girls..



a girl child is never taught to grow over their fears..they can b afraid of anythng while a "boy " has to keep up with the tag of being a boy...he cannot be afraid he has to be the bold saviour of all . if a guy has some fears he is forced to conquer them, as a part of chivalary... bt when a girl is concerned those fears can persisit and taken care by the father before marriage and her man later on.why cant' we teach daughters to fight thy fears... y is it alwys jst ok for a girl to b afraid!??

some parents dnt' do this..(very good u say!!) untill the girl is not mature.once they grow up all these things creep up all of a sudden... a gilr who ws used to being her way through out is now asked to "dress like a girl" and eventually act like a girl meaning... be coy...sweet ... and submissive.. and then those u rebel..are labelled unfairly...

common now!!! u cnnot ask ne body to jst change overnite..being brought up like a child and then one morning u wake up to find that u are no longer ur parents child but a girl child! act like a lady...i say--- bullshit!!

dnt' go out late at nite...the world is not gud..and wat not that u get to hear!! all the rules u r taught through childhood change... all of a sudden!!
funny!!
ironically funny!

my first blog...

well dn't know much about blogging bt i guess its bout expressing ur self, letting the world know u!ur thoughts..ur experiences..ur believes, knowledge n all that u possibly cn give. for me, i came here...to help people.
yes indeed!! .. i read somewhere that "thoughts" are the most powerful tools. tools that cn help you carve a life of fulfillment, life of more than jst living..a life of experiencing richness in every walk of life. i believe every one has a set of experiences..some of us track each event n mark things frm it with an observant eye...while others jst let thngs pass by unnoticed.. im of the former cult! i like keenly observing thngs around me..observing life..its various facets, emotions, logics et al. from all these observations i manage to draw some conclusions, decipher the hidden messages for me, for every one else, and today vn the whole word is shifting to a virtual base i thought to follow the suit...i have realized there are many dimensions of looking at a particular thing or phenomenon, so expressing one idea here may enlighten the other dimensions to me. which in turn may trigger off a new way of thinking indeed an important thing to susceed in life..coz some one told me if cnnot walk with a person who disagrees wid you, u won't learn any thing new!
most of my blogs would be dealing with philosophy, physcology of human mind and my daily observations..well thses are the things which i find more than enchanting n intriguing n worth pondering over..
may be my thoughts can make a difference to this world, peace, love for humans n all the good stuff which the beauty pagant winners say in their speeches may finally come true!..... i dn't expect miracles to happen lk this ....bt i cn spot the faint existence of a positive change. even if one of these blogs help a person spiritually mentally or otherwise as a jejune literary work (bringing a smile of being smater than i m)..ill b more than happy.it will help u in some way! plz read the further blogs n do post ur comments
thanks!