when a person comes in your life, things change. what you eat, what you like, your entire being... its like you discover yourself in a new light. the change is fun, its joy and thats a feeling you wish could last not for a moment or two, but for your entire being! its the most beautiful thing that i have ever felt...
you feel like holding on to that feeling for ever... but then the break up happen; pain, anger, and all anti happiness ugly things happen.its a wound that doesn't seem to heal over eternity. healing is a long long process, it takes its own time... no doctor or specialist can help you. no self help books, no psychological councilor... no one! but gradually when you are totally tired of trying to find answers as to why it happened... it suddenly dawns on you...'the breakup happens to give you a chance to b you once again'... to fall in love again!
its a process to revert back the change. i have discovered how i came to depend on him, how his view on everything mattered, how it was utterly necessary for me to have him around!! i now understand tat ws bad... really reallly bad. although there were things i learned from him, in a sense the change made me grow...it was good, but now it was time to move on... i still have a long life ahead of me, to discover new things, to understand more about every aspect of this life...
im happy i experienced love, it meant the world to me, it still does... i savor every tiny instance of the relationship. to b fair i still wish to get back together...bt i guess there is smthng else planned for me.. ill have to wait!
:)
